Exclusive: zenith. Talks About His Therapeutic Debut Single “Freddy Freddy”

Up-and-coming artist zenith. recently made his debut with the genre-bending single “Freddy Freddy.” We’ve had an honest chat with the singer-songwriter about his struggle with substance abuse and the near-death experience that led him to get rid of the monster inside of him.

“Freddy Freddy” is out, congratulations! How do you feel about your debut single? Are you excited or nervous? Tell us more about the track and how you came to write it?

I’m incredibly excited about my debut single, “Freddy Freddy.” It’s funny because I feel like I’m so far along into this music journey, but this debut is just the beginning. It’s the start of something really special, but of course I’m nervous. Any time you put yourself and your work out there in the world it’s scary and uncomfortable, but I’m trying to take it one day at a time and enjoy the process. I’ve lived in a place of fear for a long time, questioning myself and my abilities. We all know the feeling. It’s time to push through. Freddy Freddy is all about the monster inside us. l’ve gone through my own personal battles with those monsters and this song was therapy for those moments. I hold on to that stuff a lot, I know I’m a good person, at least that’s what I’d like to think, but I’ve really gotten caught up in bad things, bad decisions, bad actions in the past. I wanted to let out whatever pain and guilt I’m still holding on to and I think I did a good job of that.

Why did you choose to call the track after Freddy Krueger? What was so special about this “monster” over the others? Are you a fan of the franchise A Nightmare on Elm Street

I’ve actually never seen any of the Nightmare on Elm Street movies, but everyone knows who Freddy Krueger is. It only took a simple explanation of the plot by my mom to deter me from ever watching. I was a kid who struggled with recurring nightmares, scared sh**less most nights. I touch on that briefly in the song. But when I learned Freddy Krueger crept into people’s dreams, there was no reason for me to watch it. I already didn’t get any sleep back then. With the struggles that I’ve had with my own dreams, my own head, it’s fitting that Freddy is my monster. It also doesn’t hurt that I found a way to rhyme “Kreuger” with “Computers.”

What is a monster to you? Was there a specific moment where you’ve felt like you were one? We all have our negative qualities and unbearable behaviors, how do you learn to deal with that part of you? 

There’s a lot of monsters out there! (Some that you can see, some that you can’t see, yada yada). A monster – to me- is something that hurts someone else for its own gain/satisfaction. I don’t think monsters are bound to evil in any way… it’s a conscious choice to do the wrong thing. That’s what makes a monster. My monster was most visible when I was consumed by addiction, doing things that went completely against all my deepest morals and values. I was lying and deeply hurting people that I cared about, people that cared about me. I was hurting myself. We all have the capability to be a monster, but it’s up to us to realize that, acknowledge our undesirable behaviors, and learn from them.

It takes a brave heart to come clean and talk about past experiences and bad habits! Would you like to tell us about the journey you’ve come so far and how you evolved into the person you are today?

Life is all about the journey, finding yourself and becoming the best version of that. For too long, I’ve lived in a space that I’d call the opposite of my best version, but that has led to thought, action, and resilience that’s going to allow me to become that best version. I have an interesting mind that likes to turn on itself, but I’m focused on turning that into myself. My journey’s really just begun.

What do you want to achieve with your songs? What kind of message would you like to deliver to your listeners? 

At the end of the day, just putting my songs out there is an achievement, because in a lot of ways that resembles letting go of fear and pushing myself outside of my comfort zone. Obviously, I’d like to accomplish more than just that with my music. I want to help somebody feel something; happy, sad, angry, whatever it may be. A feeling can spark the deepest motivation, the deepest hope, I really want that for my listeners. Beyond that, I hope to deliver 100% of my authentic self to my listeners. What you hear is really, truly me. I’ve been someone that I’m not for too long, I can’t go back there.

The word is that you’ve had a near-death experience! Is that true? Would you like to share that experience with us? 

About a year and a half ago, I overdosed on what I thought to be oxycodone (probably fentanyl). My girlfriend found me with a pale, sweaty face, and blue lips, unable to breathe. She said I looked like a corpse, and I would have been if she wasn’t there to call for help and save my life. As you can imagine, that took a toll on both of us. It’s been a long process to work through that. The craziest part is that I didn’t let that be my wakeup call to stop using. It took a lot more work for me to stop, but I’m so thankful that I did. I’ll carry that with me forever, but it won’t hold me back, it will be part of my message and I hope the story helps someone fight their own addiction, their own monsters.

Let’s go back to the time when you realized music is the way forward for you! Were you raised in a musical family? Who was your biggest influence while growing up? 

Music’s been a part of my life for as long as I can remember, and it all started with the piano. Taking lessons as a kid, I really fell in love with the way that different tones and sounds could create the most beautiful feelings in my mind. Music always seemed to hit me with such force and feeling that I had no choice but to love it, and that remains true today. Since I was a kid, my biggest musical inspirations have been Kanye West and Taylor Swift. These two artists helped me fall in love with the creative side of music, the voice and ideas that make magic through sound. I’ll note quickly that this is strictly musical inspiration, it really saddens me to see the way that Kanye has dealt (or not dealt) with his monsters. I can sympathize with anyone who is struggling with mental health, but as adults, it’s our responsibility to get that taken care of.

Now that you’ve released your debut single, what does the future hold for you? Do you have any plans to release an album? What about collaborations? Which artists would you like to work with? What’s next for you in terms of your music career?

Freddy Freddy is going to be the first stone that falls in my avalanche of music. I’m going to release 4 more singles over the next few months that capture my spirit and give me a formal introduction to the world. After that, I’ll make my first album and let the ball keep rolling from there. If I could collaborate with any artist, it would be Polo G, another artist I consider to be one of my biggest inspirations. I think a common theme for my inspirations is that they remain true to themselves, something that I will bring to the table as well. At the end of the day, I don’t know where this road is going to take me. I just want to enjoy every moment and find my peace and love as I keep sharing my creative nature with the world. I’ll keep sharing my authentic self with the world – and who knows, maybe one day I could help an entire team of like-minded artists share their stories. 

Thank you, Vents Magazine, for having me! 🙂

Jonathan Engel
Author: Jonathan Engel

Writer about the best entrepreneurs, musicians and tech news.

About Jonathan Engel

Writer about the best entrepreneurs, musicians and tech news.
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