Hi! Welcome to VENTS! How have you been?
I’ve been well, excited that my music is out! Sleeping a bunch, and feeling like this guy: 🐛
Can you talk to us more about your latest single “Perpetuate”?
Yas. I wrote it after a guy told me that he wasn’t interested in dating me. It was so painful to hear that I couldn’t help but wonder: “Where is this pain coming from? Why is it so hard for me to not be liked?”
So I went in and explored my insecurity. As I digged, I found a part of me that couldn’t stomach rejection from men because it made me feel like I was worthless. My belief was that if a guy wasn’t interested in me it meant that I wasn’t good enough.
I realized that this belief had been passed on by the women before me. They taught me (mostly subconsciously) that my value was connected to my ability to get a man to want me.
Once I found this nugget I was able to move past it, and that’s what the song is about. Forgiving the previous generations (“all the women before me / who kept getting the message / you need a man to be worthy”) and not needing external validation anymore.
It’s a song for any person going through rejection, and I hope they can understand it’s not about them. If someone doesn’t want you it honestly doesn’t mean anything about your value. It just means they don’t want to be with you – and that’s it. We jump to all sorts of fake conclusions when we face rejection, and that’s the root of the problem.
Did any event in particular inspire you to write this song?
The full story is that I was getting to know this guy, and I wasn’t sure whether he was interested in me. So I asked him point blank if he was. He said no, that he just wanted to be friends.
That triggered so much pain – even though (this is really the kicker) I wasn’t even sure that I liked HIM. So here I am, in pain because someone that I don’t even know if I actually like tells me he doesn’t like me. It’s SO wild. I’m so thankful that this happened and that I was able to grow past this insane hard-wired reaction.
By the way, this rejection situation happened to me several times over the past year. But because of that core belief I had –that a man wanting me determined my worthiness–I would hold onto these people and keep pushing and trying to get them to like me, and the expense of my dignity. It was rough as f*ck.
Any plans to release any sort of video for the single?
Just an acoustic version from my bedroom for now.
The single comes off your new album EP Unsupervised – what’s the story behind the title?
I love the story! When I started making music, it was incredibly surprising and effortless. I felt really confident and guided by the creative gods when it came to writing, singing, producing. Then I reached the point that I wanted to release it publically, and I kind of froze.
I felt like I needed someone to tell me that it was good enough to put out. I was scared to put it on Spotify, etc, and felt stopped in my tracks for a few weeks.
Then in another epiphany moment (legit guys crazy messages come when you just sit and listen to a feeling for a while) – I found out that the resistance I felt was because I believed that I needed someone in the music industry to tell me it was good before I could release it. I thought I needed to be supervised.
In that split second as I was sitting on my couch, the Unsupervised title dropped into my mind like a bomb. It was crystal clear.
So turns out – I don’t need to be supervised, the music is what it is, it could definitely be better, but I made it myself and that’s what I’m proud of.
How was the recording and writing process?
I recorded everything from my bedroom with a borrowed microphone and a pop filter I made with a clothes hanger. Haha.
My process for songwriting is: I have a feeling that bubbles up inside of me and I start writing words in a note on my phone- at this point it looks like chopped up bits of sentences. Then I go to the piano, I randomly start playing some chords until something feels right, then I sing the words onto the keys… melodies just happen. It’s kind of a mystical experience. I usually go from idea to song in an hour or less, and then it’s done.
Who has influenced your writing and how?
I really have no idea.
What aspect of love did you get to explore on this record?
It’s all about realizing that the “love” I was craving had to come from within myself. I know this is so cheesy and stereotypical. But even though I had agreed with the idea for my whole life, I only really felt it and embodied it as I was making this EP.
Would you call this your most personal album?
Hah yes, because it’s my only album so far! But every song I write is authentic and inspired by a personal feeling.
Where else did you find the inspiration for the songs and lyrics?
“Petite Fille”, the second song on the album, was born because I was looking through an old journal. I saw this really long French poem-ish thing I had written to myself a few months back and forgotten about. And I was like – wow – this is perfect to make a song out of. So I just found two really simple keys on my keyboard, tweaked the words a little bit and that was it.
What else is happening next in Jessie Hyde’s world?
I keep having dreams of when quarantine will be over and I’ll be able to play live… Stay tuned 🙂