Can you talk to us more about your latest single “You Can’t Hurt Me Anymore”? Did any event in particular inspire you to write this song?
It’s based on my own true story of sex trafficking and my own personal rise afterwards, which took over 15 years but better late than never…
How was the filming process and experience behind the video?
We hired a loft in DTLA and couldn’t really afford to have it for longer than 3 hours so after setting everything up we only had about 2 hours to shoot. And about one hour into the shoot one off the main lights fell on MY HEAD. Not only did it nearly knock me out but also we had no replacement light so that was it. We only managed to shoot for 1 hour. I’m just so glad we got enough material and had an amazing editor to actually finish the video. Super grateful.
How was the recording and writing process?
I have a songwriting policy between me and me, if I don’t write the whole song in roughly 20-30 minutes it’s not a go. I’ll save it but I most likely won’t revisit it. That’s how I weed out the good and the not so good songs. So this was one of those quick ones that literary fell into my head. The first recording of this song, created by Frank Kirstein, sounded very different. It’s with a steady beat and much more cool and harsh sounding. We might release it one day… It was when one of the editors of my film “Apartment 407” suggested that I should put one of my own tracks at the end of the film that this one came to mind immediately. So we re-recorded it after an amazing piano player from Uzbekistan, Maksim Velichkin, helped us out laying down the new piano track. My only suggestion to him was think as minimalist as you can. And he nailed it. He helped us create that haunting slow start with a beautiful build throughout the song and then a quiet end, just what I wanted. A real rising from the ashes moment. The same ridiculously talented guy also laid down the gorgeous cello. I then re-recorded the vocals following the new track and — voila.
Was the song always meant to be part of your film’s soundtrack?
No, not from the beginning. In fact it wasn’t on our first version of the film which took home an award in London at the Raindance Festival. We re-edited the film after that festival and added the song.
Touching on some hot topics, especially very close to you – was it easy for you to open?
No. Not at all. It still isn’t, if I’m honest. Easier on paper than in person though. It took me over 10 years of silent suffering to tell anyone about it. That’s when I told my best friend Glynn Turner, who’s the writer of my film Apartment 407. We spent days recording my story on his iPhone while he was asking difficult questions. Pretty unpleasant. And then to go from telling one person to telling the world was a bit of a shock to my system. Extremely intimidating. There’s a sad feeling of shame and self blame that kicks in after being abused and that’s what’s really hard to beat. Much harder than dealing with the injustice of what actually happened.
How did you go on balancing the dark aspect with the much uplifting undertone?
Mirroring my life. It’s been a balancing act ever since it happened. Good days and bad days. It starts out with more bad days than good and then at some point it swings around and does a 180. Humans are built to survive. We can overcome most things and move forward. It’s all in the mind. I had to change my outlook on life (sounds so deep) and celebrate the fact I actually survived that ordeal and not wallow in being some sort of victim. I’m not a victim — I’m a surviver. That’s what the song is about. And that’s exactly the message I want to convey to other women who have experienced abuse.
Does the new single mean we can expect a new material – how’s that coming along?
Yes, definitely. I’ll be releasing another single in January and then an EP sometimes in March.
Any tentative release date or title in mind?
I’m currently choosing between 2 songs but I’m leaning toward a song called “Will I Come Back”.
Any plans to hit the road?
I would love to go on a tour, who wouldn’t!?!?! I’m hoping that once the EP is out I can start playing live a bit more and then plan something small to start with in the spring.
What else is happening next in Frida Farrell’s world?
I just recorded 2 new songs, still in the mixing and mastering stage, but should be ready in the beginning of the year. Exciting. AND I’m also moving forward rapidly on the film production side of things. We have two new films in development and it looks like one of them, “Albert”, is going into preproduction sooner than we thought. I think 2020 will be a good year. Fingers crossed.